Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Lol! Nothing much happen today... I Get to see Faresh For like a dam short while sia!! NO FUN!!!! Atleast still get to see him.. LOL!!! Lessons... as usual boring... then after skool go pasta mania... LOL! Dam fun... Thn go Toy'R'us... LOL! me, chee hou and vanessa use the pig long pole and the toy swort to beat each other.. LOL! dam funny! cannot tahan! LOL!!! I guess thats all.. LOL!


Tuesday, September 29, 2009
When i just reach school... and im just outside my class and i see selvi inside and she ask me follow her go to BK.... on the way down she said to me that her so called "krush" says to her that he is not in NS... then selvi got mad and like go bad mood... but yet... she is still in a happy mood.. LOL! During lesson as usual.. The Pumpkinator Came in and talk about his life as a accountence... Gt bored... Thn P.E!! AND OMG!! I NEVER EVEN DO MY 5 STATIONS!!! AND I HAVE TO DO IT!! INFRONT OF EVERYBODY SIA!! DAM THE PAISEYHH!!! MR SOH!!! DUN LET ME TAKE P.E!!! After that... mother tongue... And 1st period of mother tongue.. as usuall.. boring.... and the 2nd period... WOOW!!! I get to see Faresh!! LOL!! A lot of times he pass by my mother tongue class. i see him makes me feel like i am whole... without him it makes me feel like im soo broken apart... Then recess... eat at the last minute! LOL! Then... me, de huang, chee hou and geng quan we walk to the sec1 class... and i 1st pass by sec1 class... i see 1H and i see them having a test... And Wow!!! Faresh sitting there with his perfect skin... Which he Caress me!! OMG!!.. LOL! Thn i see him tearing tiny peices of paper then roll it into a ball and throw it at his friend.. LOL! Tat was soo freaking funny! he reminds me of myself... LOL! After that... walk past 1D and omg DM was in... she ask us whyy we walking pass the sec 1 class.. lucky de huang cover me!! LOL! Thx de huang!!! LOL! And like... bla bla maths thn science and during english... LOL! i accidentally throw a bottle at chee hou head.. i was like thinking to swing here swing there... LOL THEN KENA HIM... Paiseyh sia!! Mr lim Posing like 1 model infront with the angry face... AND LOL! DAM FUNNY SIA THE FACE!! LOL! After that after school... When wan to walk out the gate... i see Hafiz, Faresh and the dunno who else... LOL!! I waited for Hafiz to like walk out coz i neeed to pass out msg... thn when he gt out... i pass him the msg... but i wasnt looking at him.. i was looking at FARESH!!! LOL! Okayy... and like i gt distracted... thn hafiz ask me send a msg back to my fwen.. LOL! After that eat.. go home... LOL!


Monday, September 28, 2009
This morning i was thinking that its gonna b a great day when i see Faresh at the bus stop... but i was wrong... when i reach school. i still think that its gonna be a good day.. coz im staring at Faresh for a very long time.... And when its time for spot check... I stil think that its a lucky/good day... coz i was not sent up... During recess... at the end of it... i pass by Faresh class... And i saw hafiz at the front door... so i said 'hi hafiz' to him... Then i saw Faresh... Faresh was Looking at me!!! And i was like... smiling but he didnt smile and i was like WTH!!! Arghs!!!! but then i was wrong... during F&N lesson... My partner was Zawawi!! I was like WTH!! i hate him a lot!!! I HATE HIM!!! I NEVER LIKED HIM!! HE SUX TO THE CORE!!!! and when we are like suppose to mix the egg with the mixture of the flour, sugar and whatever... i leave him to do it while i go to the teacher for a while... And when im come back... the mixture is totally Ruin!! But what am i supose to do? What is done is done... And after we make the cake... i pulled out the cake... and when we cut to half... the middle is still uncook... And he blame me..!! he is the 1 tat wanted to cut to half ASAP and he blame me!! Thn i wash the dishes and everything...!! i am soo dam angry seyh!! After that i went home with de huang... Me and him chat n chat... after that its all useless stuff... LOL! okayyss!! Buh bies~!


Friday, September 25, 2009
Omg...! i think i will be like soo dam pissed...!!! Early in the morning im like soo alone... And im like in the middle of the parade square like the center of attraction sia!!! Lucky Namirah came along... If not i think i will be a loner... We talk about hari raya... It was me that who is suppose to plan... but since i sux at planning things... so i make namirah to plan everything... Then Shafiq came along... And we Talk about the same topic... i ask him to like tell syamir to go fer hari raya!! Lol!!! after 5mins... chee hou reached.. and like FINALLY!! i have been waiting... Me, namirah and Chee hou go and buy drinks while shafiq go back to his class... We bought water thn went back...And i saw Faresh!!! Omg... Each time i see him its like making me want him more!! Each passing day each single dayy!!! And once the DM came.. i must go all the way to the front... And i cannot see FARESH!! ARHHSSS!!!! Dam angry!!!!then After singing the anthem and dunno what awards was given out... Then mr tang was like talking n talking... the way she talks is like end of the world or her final words of goodbye... and i predicted correctly again.. Mr wong came to our class and find for chee hou!! hhahahhas!!! Vehry the funny seyh... History lesson the this lady teacher came in... She is like a statue of liberty posing in the middle of my class... and the usual... mr ortega start talking... and everybody cannot even hear his TINY LITTLE voice... i think i heard a baby talks louder... Or mayb any old lady at the age of 100++ talk louder thn her... Then science and english... the usual... worksheets worksheets and what a suprise more worksheets... Recess... Eat with namirah, chee hou, Geng quan, de huang, wenhao, yiming, and err... a lot larhh.. LOL! Then after eating.. .me and nadhirah... we go to 1H malay class... Faresh is there!!!! And her Hafiz is also there... and when i pass by their class.. i see non of them... and when i pass by second time... i still dont see them!!! And i will like omg!! DAm the angryyy!!! Lol!!! And WTH!!! i am wishing Faresh love me.!!!! If he can hear me now.. i am soo gonna be paiseyhh... ahixx.. Then after recess... the same old same old... LOL! thats all!! =X


Thursday, September 24, 2009

Its been a long time that i have done my blog... its been like around 4 months... let me catch up... I told chee hou my DEEPEST DARKEST SECRET OF ALL!!! And like more n more people are knowing it... i think im making it too obvious... but its like been 8 months... i look at him from afar... my emotions grew as each day pass by... But now... i feel confuse... Half my brain say i hate him.. but the other half say i love him... I Just dont know anymore!!! Im going crazy!! MY fulscap is full of question... Full of His name... Im just confuse!! Whyy him!! Whyy me!!! Many questions going through my mind... i feel like jus go for counciling... but that means that my family would know who i am... its really dam sad that my family dun even know me.... I feel depress... I am unable to get slp... i cannot even do anything right anymore!! I wan to confess but its a crazy thing to do... if i confess... Things in skool will change... like last year... But... its in my head... saying to me to confess.... hmmm... let me just put it in my blog big big....


Faresh!!! I LOVE YOU!!! I AM CRAZY OVER YOU!!! WHYY WONT YOU LOVE ME?!?!?! I LOVE YOU.!!! I AM OBSESS!! I CANNOT EVEN SLEEP JUST BECAUSE OF YOU!!! I WANT YOU TO BE WITH ME !!!! NOW!!! AND FOREVER!

soo thats wat i wanted to say.... Faresh.. if ur reading this... which is 100% comfirm that u are not reading it.... dun ignore me anymore!!!